I am a mummy to two beautiful girls and a little cockapoo dog called Ted.
I live in a gorgeous village in the countryside surrounded by some wonderful people.
My child-minding job enabled me to have the freedom to work from home around my own children, to be able to do the school runs and attend school events without having to ask for time off or miss out on seeing the girls perform.
Sounds idyllic? So why did I decide to end my marriage after twenty years together. The picture painted to all was that of a perfect one. What could possibly be wrong within the family unit that on the surface looked ideal?
Life! Life that was kept hidden, events that weren't talked about to anyone because God forbid people should find out how imperfect I was.
Nine stone overweight and a big wake up call within my marriage, I was sad... Very very sad. Surrounded by everything believed to bring happiness, I couldn't shake the internal feeling of sadness, frustration, anger, guilt, anxiety and worry inside of me. I smiled, I was social, I kept up the pretence that life was good, and in many ways it was, but I also knew I had to do something to change how I was feeling because that anger, frustration and sadness were always there.
My physical transformation was my first focus - the weight needed to go! Getting dressed in a morning, deciding what to wear when you're "big" is not fun. My clothes were all clothes I had to wear because they were the size that fit, not necessarily ones that I wanted to wear. I HATED what I saw in the mirror, how had I allowed myself to become this way? Let the weight loss mission commence! I got myself on an eating plan with lots of nutritious foods, started cooking from scratch and learnt new ways to make food tasty!
I introduced exercise, very slowly... Now, exercise when you're overweight is TERRIFYING! I was so scared about attending any classes... What if I couldn't do it? What if everyone laughed and pointed at the 'fat person' puffing and panting in the corner? And as for going to buy workout clothes? Oh gosh! Everything was super clingy and tight! Where are the big, baggy tops to hide your lumps and bumps? And will the shop assistants be whispering to each other about the 'fat lady' buying exercise kit? All these internal thoughts built and had an effect on how I felt daily. I joined a HIIT class run by some of the most supportive people, who encouraged and guided me through each session. Friends for life now!
As I made physical changes, mental changes started to happen. My confidence grew, I felt like I was regaining control back over my life. I began doing things for me because I wanted to not because I felt I should, to not upset anyone. I felt better able to deal with everyday life, my mood improved and my energy levels began to rise. I was becoming who I wanted to be.
My body is strong now, I feel FREE! There are no limits to what you can do once you take control back over yourself both mentally and physically. I dropped the excuses, the words "I can't" became "I CAN"... I can play with the kids without being puffed out, I go swimming with them without the fear of the dreaded "swimming costume"...! I rode a bike from London to Cologne...!!!!
Now, my body is far from "perfect", but what is perfect? I believe that perfect is what you think about yourself, about how you feel about yourself, about how you talk to yourself. If you feel good, what does it matter what others think? Is it their body? Is it your life or theirs?
Now, this might sound strange to you after reading all of that, because I believe it's only when we have come through something that we look back and reflect, but I didn't realise the journey that I was about to go on was going to be "life changing" and lead me to this. Coaching has been a life long dream of mine but how can you coach others when you are not even in a place to coach yourself? The past few years have been a rollercoaster of self discovery, of taking a BIG look at myself and working on becoming the best versions of ME I can be.
Physically I've changed and mentally... OMG! Huge change there also. I not only lost the weight from my body, but also the weight off my mind!
I've developed strategies to work through anger, frustration and guilt that I'm excited to share with you. No longer do I worry what others think of me, the only opinion that matters is my own.
I am here to work with you through your "life problems", through weight loss stumbling blocks, through relationship issues... I have been there and I have discovered the tools to BECOME YOU. To be the YOU that you want to be within your life, relationships and career. None of these need to change, it's YOU that changes which in turn, changes your perspective to look at things differently, more positively leading to a happier, healthier YOU!
We are all perfectly imperfect, lets go on a journey to discover the real YOU :-)
Let nothing stop you! x